okaes..i was kinda tired..after shoppin e whole dae can..with xuewen and wawa..we shop from marina to raffles city..den to orchard..centre point..heeren..takashimaya..far-east..and back to centre point again..okaes..gonna post of what im feeling ritez now..at this point in time..and i would tell your e fun n sadness we had jus now..im jus feeling that im just so useless..n so insecure..i got no fate in anything..from e day i knew myself..i was telling laogong just now..i feel so insecure not only on relationship..and even friendship..okaes some people would think are u sure u're so emotional..my answer is:"YES!IM JUST SUPER EMO.!!"..i cried one e way back home..with laogong..and thanks baobei for listening to my words n u can throw them away now le..im feeling that im losing everyone now..
1st is adeline..i realise i have dont know how to face her..i did called every single nitez and her mum thinks that we're a lesbian..then we chat on all toopid stuff..and can even chat till late nights..but once i tried to called her..she was busly typing her msg..and i was thinking..since she so busy..i mean i not angry..with adeline or wad..is just i think that i should't have bother u..so i decieded to call u ltr..den till now i didnt call her..i think she also didnt mind much either..friends are losing..im scare..really scare..and now..in schooll i used to si siao her..but now,not anymore..im no longer close to her..i dont know how to face her can..best friends or normal friends i really dont know..i know she is in a difficult spot too..therefore didnt force her..to go out with mie or wad..is her freedom i cant tie her down either..but in order not to so called betray either one of e groups she decided to not come out with any of e groups..and fine..i respect her..that's her decison..i cant stop her..i just feeling..im very sad..
im crying from just now till now..im sitting in a merc taxi i was chatting with laogong and i was still thinking of tis..adeline choose to be with rifels friends..she no longer tagg my blog..msged mi or called mie..im fine..seriously..anything that made u guy happy is all right with mie..
the other one im losing is low kiah ying..she now tie down by her job..she hab this shift and all those..but at least she still by my side..not e same as adeline tan tat pig..gr..i jus dono wad to sae..my other thing i bugging about is mr ng..flinstone..i just dont know why..e more u tell mie ur're all right..i just feel that nothing is right in u..can..i this few daes,there isnt any smile in u..not t normal u..im just not used to it..can..my erzhi becoming more and more depress..i just dont know e reasons..u sae u dont wan to let mie worrry by telling mie all ur worrys..but,the more u dont tell mie i getting more and more worry not i kapo or wad..maybe u might think so..but im main concern is that i scare that i realii realii lose u this magalax erzhi can..there a sense telling mie that u will do somthing foolish..im been wild thinking..i jus dont know why can..if u think om just thinking too much..or disturbing u please tell mi so..msg mie..when u and adeline saw this post..xiinyi&andyLabels: specially for ngANDline((:))